Sunday, October 14, 2007

What now...?

Wow my life is boring! Things come and go....fun times in dancEnsemble. The Office. Slurpees. Boys. Then comes the part where I get sore from dancing. The Office isn't all that fun as an hour long special. Slurpee machines being broken. Boys? Don't even get me started. It's just hard when I'm either frustrated with THEM for many reasons or with no dates OR when they come over unexpectedly and freak me out. (Right Emily!!?)But life goes on and I'm trying to be happy. And when I say trying, I mean I don't know what to do.... It's soooo hard when Satan makes me feel inadequate and when wonderful new friends come into my life and then kinda forget about me I feel even worse.....Isn't scripture reading awesome? Oh and prayers? Totally amazing! I just keep telling myself that.

Well....anyone willing to give a free hug?

Love, Me

36 comments:

Lyd said...

I'll be giving you your first free blog hug! I need one maself! I'm trying to figure out what I am doing with myself. Stressful. I hate it. I just want to be done!! Grrr! I too need to keep that ending perspective. It makes life better. We just need to keep going strong!! Love yas!

shauna said...

You know that I am up at 3:30 because I am so worried about you. I am totally freaked out about the "drop-in" visitor. Next time I will be calling the police and I AM NOT KIDDING. Please let me know. If he comes give him the warning that the police will be called and he will have a record so STOP IT!!

On the other issue, I got so much comfort hearing that you are praying and in the scriptures. You have so many promises in your PB that the Lord has not forgotten. I am teaching the Abrahamic Covenant on Tuesday, and you have so many promises being a child of the covenant. Just be patient as Abraham and Sarah of old, (right, Curtis???) The right one is worth waiting for...Just ask Kristen McMain (Oaks)

Please wait for the Lord to place that great person promised to you in your path. Don't manipulate the system. It didn't work last time did it?

I LOVE YOUR GUTTS. I wish you were home to hug and cry with. I miss you and want you to be happy.

Was this long enough?

Mandy said...

oh i wish i could give you a big fat hug and then we could eat something sinful together. ;) your mom is right (is she ever wrong?) just be faithful and strong. your such an awesome girl. i love your gus so much. i wish you had a break in school so you could come visit us! i am sure disneyland could help cheer you up. if you ever want to come for the weekend..let me know. i would love to have you stay with us. then i wont be so lonely while tays at school! :)

EmDab said...

Hellew... I live like three blocks away from you... Hugs are ALWAYS free in your case! Except I won't be wrapping my arms around you exactly. Pretty much I'll just lean on you, but you know it's from the heart.

For what it's worth, I'm equally freaked out by your midnight visitor and my knee-jerk reaction was also to get some kind authority involved. Don't worry, Shauna-- I've got a protective eye on that situation...

We should go to the temple sometime this week.

ashleyO said...

Thanks famerly...Emerly included! Um I didn't write this for a pity party. I just had some bottled up emotions and had to get them out! Life is soooo frustrating so thanks for the e-hugs all! Mom I'm like you. I write novelish comments all the day. Um, Mandy that is the coolest offer eveh! I'd love to come visit in California one day! Totally!

I'm trying to be happy. It's just hard when I scarf down all the food that I just bought on Wednesday! Yes 2 lil tubs of Light Onions n Chives Cream Cheese...gone! a box of RF Wheat Thins...gone! Grasshopper cookies...gone! Oh, how I wish David would have taken those home Emily! But what do I care...I enjoyed eating them.

So yay Transformers comes out tomorrow and Guitar Hero 3 comes out in 2 weeks. That's like all I have to look forward to!!! haha

Alli Fantastico said...

I was typing my response and our power went out! Second time in 12 hours!!! Grrrr!!!

Anyway, ditto what everyone said on the nighttime visitor. I'm sorry about all of that, maybe you should come down here and go to Disneyland with me and Mandy for every day!

I'm also glad you have Em up there. You have Eliza too, don't forget that! Aw how I wish I were there!!!

Also,woot(!) on the GH3 and the Transformers!!! Can I get a whutwhut?!?

ashleyO said...

whutwhut!!!

ashleyO said...

I could seriously just drop my books and my Remains of the Day lunchbox and head to California right now! Seriously. I don't even want to be in Provo anymore! ummmm....did I just type that outloud?

EmDab said...

Booooo I'm sad you ate all the grasshoppers. I would have helped you!!!

Can we get GH3 and play all the day??? I'm serious. We need to get our hands on it, even if it means pooling our money and not eating for the rest of the semester. In the long run, that plan would probably benefit my waistline, even if it destroyed my muscle mass.

ashleyO said...

Oh and I just finished off my can of FF Pringles. Yes I opened them yesterday but they are as mom calls them: "laxatives." :)

Yes!!! GH3. Emily. Let's! Who needs muscle mass anyway!? jk I'd buy it though if I could...

Alli Fantastico said...

I wish you could come here with us! Hopefully soon enough we'll be up there too, and then you'll have 2 of your sisters to distract you plus Em!

ashleyO said...

yes please. Distract away. As if I need anymore of that these days. I'm a sloth as it is....harhar! jk...bus sistahs plus Em is dah best kind of distractions

Eliza said...

hello where have I been? I talked to you today and didn't even know that any of this was going on. I've been a blog slacker. I e-hug you too and I can real hug you in a few minutes if you want.

YOu need to fill me in on the visitor. I swear once Curtis finds out he's gonna go and talk to him. He's wanted to for a while now.

I'll call you

shauna said...

Please just remember the studying is #1 and I don't think that they have cream cheese at the library. Get working on your papers and thinking about your project. Honestly, you are almost done. When I have little pity parties, dad just tells me to find someone to serve. Think about it???

Love you!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Tippidy said...

i miss u!

ashleyO said...

yeah...i'm trying to find someone to serve. um and no the library doesnt have that stuff there...but it doesnt mean i can't take it with me and hide in the back.

yes Tiff I miss you too! must we be like 800 miles away?

ashleyO said...

oh and i might just need someone to talk to him! i've had many offers....one more wouldn't help.

Alli Fantastico said...

Mike said he would go with Curtis and talk to him this weekend. Think about it.

ashleyO said...

dat would scare the crap! um i'll think about it.

EmDab said...

HA HA HAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!

PLEASE bless that Curtis and Mike will go together!! That would make my lifetime.

Oh and it would likely make it stop. Because that IS the most important result here, you know, not my amusement.

Taylor said...

You mean serve with temporary restraining order?

ashleyO said...

hahahaha yeah that makes sense...nice tayder.

yes emaree! that would possibly work.

p.s. i am eating carrots and A1 people! i'm now in love with the pre-cut/dipping carrots...so easy to eat without breaking the jaw or teef!

-KJ said...

I WILL CALL TOO! AND I AM NOT KIDDING!
I say we throw Kev and Paul into that little "he needs a talkin" to party. Scary now?
Ash, we have got to have a girls night out this week. I will see if Kev can babysit. Lets try Thursday. I will make sure he is home.
WE LOVE YOU AND YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL!!!

Alli Fantastico said...

Mike wouldn't hurt anybody, neither would Curtis... A little talk from the men in Ashley's "real" life would be good for his understanding. Paul and Kev are big guys too. I say we make a plan. Saturday night????????????

Taylor said...

put me in on the conference call

EmDab said...

Can I just be there to listen?

ashleyO said...

oh wow....
thanks kissy! yes I agree. I want a girls night out pah-wheeze!

Eliza said...

Alli will kill us if we do it on Thursday if she is coming this weekend...but I really want to go to Pei Wei again...so yummy!

Alli Fantastico said...

DANGIT, Satuday afternoon!!!

Alli Fantastico said...

Also Mike wants Curtis to call him so they can make a plan.

-KJ said...

Saturday NIGHT! Dang, we have a b-day party, a baptism, and furniture delivery on Sat afternoon! We MUST MAKE IT WORK SOMEHOW!

ashleyO said...

sheesh KJ...seems to always come down to her...lol. i want to try dat Pee Wee I MEAN Pei Wei. I want to go to Taipan too! and then Nielsen's

ashleyO said...

and then Ikea and Tucano's and Happy Sumo...and Sonic...and Dinnysan.

Eliza said...

and then eat a burger for a bucket o fries

Alli Fantastico said...

I say Pei Wei, Taipan, Ikea, Nielsens, then Sonic for Diet Coke w/lime and to the top with ice! You're the one for me, fatty!

ashleyO said...

mmmm Bucket o Fries! Which flavah? as long as i get some friza sauce!