Wednesday, March 28, 2007

Me is Dumb!!!

What is a girl to do!? I know that reading my scriptures and praying are key, but I still feel as if I'm failing in life.

I miss home; I miss my whole family; I miss Digger for some odd reason (chello! can you say 9 years ago?); I miss being an A student; I miss folk dance just a bit (and oddly enough I'm still in folk dance); I miss dancing with my whole body; I miss Coke; I miss Sonic runs; I miss good mail; I miss being healthy; I miss sunshine (especially today); I miss hugs; I miss hearing "I love you!" from my mom and dad everyday; I miss Harry Potter; I miss waking up actually wanting to go to school; I miss mince and tatties; I miss cheesy potatoes; I miss Christmas; I miss my Patriarchal Blessing (still trying to find that); I miss my room and my bed and my bathroom; I miss my old roomies; I miss Sunday dinners at the Gowan house; I miss not having a washer and dryer in my living unit; I miss "The Office" ( is April 5th here yet!?); I miss late night Slurpee runs with girls that actually buy a Slurpee when we go to 7-11; I miss being a good student; I miss Weight Watcher fudge pops (can't they go back on sale anytime soon?)

I know I need to think about the happy things in life but these are my happy things in life. I still smile and laugh about everything so no worries there...I just wish I was back to the way I was in high school!!! But that was the past...I know that I can't redo anything but I do know that I can make things better by trying now!!!...bleh...



(The nice thing is that I just RANDOMLY saw a girl carrying around posters about the Disney recruiters coming to BYU on April 9th...just a thought!)

48 comments:

Alli Fantastico said...

I miss you; I miss the Gowan house; I miss going to Susan's to play with all the cousins; I miss running in the sprinklers; I miss laying on the hot asphalt after playing on the sprinklers; I miss the smell of Pirates; I miss my family; I miss Digger; I miss not having to pay bills; I miss not having to go to work every morning; I miss you; I miss you; I miss you!

Mandy said...

i miss being in high school as well, things were great living at home no worries (well their were different kind of worries) but then again i wouldnt have you in my life if i was back in high school so i dont miss it that much!! fun times being young with little responsibility! cheer up charlie...things will get betta! why dont you come to vali for a vacation with me and your sis! oh and taylor can be there too!

Lyd said...

You is not dump! You be amazing! Everytime I read one of your posts, whether it's on here or on Facebook, you make me smile and laugh. I love you to death. And don't you worry, I'll be there in 9 days! And we can go buy Slurpees at any time and play Guitar Hero!

Eliza said...

HELLO!!!! I am here!! Call me up...come on oveh...I want a slurpee! Are you coming out here for the weekend? Come on Friday as soon as you can...! Riley is having his bday party and we are going to see Meet the Robinsons. Hurry! Oh and on Sunday or Saturday I can make you cheesy potates! (yes I said P0-TATES!) Or we could have lasagna...HAH!! Oh and I love you everyday!

-KJ said...

I feel an intervention coming on. I was just telling my mom that you need some time just for you doing only fun things. Seven Peaks, Slurpees, BBQ's, shopping, shopping, shopping, and late night chit chats with the family gals. Everyone is thinking of you Ash. More than you know, and you are in our prayers too.
One time in my life when I was feeling kinda like you I just prayed for Heavenly Father to give me a distraction. Sounds weird, I know, but there was too much drama and dumb stuff going on in my life. Two weeks lata I met Kev. I swear I prayed him into my life. Of course I didn't think I was going to marry him right when I met him, but he was so much fun, and gave me something else to think about. Try it. I'm not saying you'll meet a man, but the Lord knows what you need. Ask and he'll give it to you.
Oh yea, I miss Digger too! And Abe and Toby!!!

Ash-ah-leee! said...

Oh I miss you all too! And Liza I know you are there...I just feel like I intrude everytime I come over! I need to do that more often. I am actually in a dance show on Friday night. It is the Senior Projects Showcase. Then on Saturday night after Priesthood session I have a SPAC 04 reunion.

Mandy, I'm coming! Don't know when but I wish it was N-O-W! Lyd! I am soooo frickin excited! Yay! Slurpees and GH all the day!

KJ-Thanks for that! I needed to hear that. I just don't know what is wrong with me. But I don't hate myself I just wish I wasn't sooo slothful!!! Yes, chello a deadly sin! Blee bleh!

I LOVE YOU ALL!!! MUAH x's A ZILLION AND ONE!

-KJ said...

We know you don't hate yourself!!! Everyone gets in ruts. You hardly sound slothful. All I hear about is how busy you are!
Hey, when are you going on a date with that guy your mom likes? Blind dates set up by moms can really work out ;)!!!

Mandy said...

so i am sitting at home by myself (kids asleep, tay at school) watching tv and eating some reduced fat cheezits and thinking of you as i chomp because i know you love em!

-KJ said...

Cheese Its do sound good. I just ate me a late night Laffy Taffy. Great right before bed! Gives the plaque something to really hang on to.

Lyd said...

I just had a couple of S'mores with dark chocolate (the mallows where crisped over the stove!) Yummy!

Ryan Nelson said...

We totally miss all those things, which makes you normal. Here's an idea, take a break from freakin school!! I need one too, I never got less than A's but you get so birned out you stop caring then you start to remember all the things you wish you could still do. By the way, we need to play more. Stop dancing and devote your life to slurpees. I think we should make a time each day and go cause I do nothing with anyone all day except watch TV at home and get new stories from Chad that I can use as gossip. Hell yes!

Eliza said...

So are you coming over at all this weekend? AND you don't intrude! I love when you come and so do my kids. When I say your name to Isaac he smiles and says it back! You have to come over this weekend even if it means I have to come and get you and take you to all your stuff! I so own handcuffs...and NO keep those minds clean...they are my kids!

EmDab said...

(Pretend you can see me shuffling my feet and looking all [cute and] shy.)

Maybe I'm not your Mom and Dad and family, but I like slurpees. Especially at like midnight. I also like the word "slurpee" because it's spelled just the way it sounds. I so know what you mean about missing folk dance even though you're a part of it. You know, maybe the possiblity of "pursuing other educational goals" isn't a bad idea in some ways.

And I'd like to point out we're set for a Sonic run this very day, and we're having a The Office party next week, so that takes care of that at least... :/ I ruv you.

Ash-ah-leee! said...

Blind dates...been on too many! But yes they can be fun and plentiful kj :)! Liza of course I'm going to come this weekend! Saturday I think I'm going to be there all day if you want until I have my reunion. I'm not going to stay that long because it's mainly to just get our long awaited SPAC 04 video!!! IT'S ABOUT TIZZIME!!!

Ryan~ Sounds good to me! I miss you to NEIGHBOR!!! Let's play crackah!

Okay, so I'm totally craving RF Cheez-Its at the mome! I do love them for they all have a burnt taste (sorry Ryan! I know you hate that!)

Em you are totally correct! 3ish today!? Okay! I Luff it! Educational goals eh!? YES PLEASE!!!

Alli Fantastico said...

Hug hug, kiss kiss, hug hug, big kiss, little hug, kiss kiss, little kiss.

also, I love you because you wear the stretchy pants.

Ash-ah-leee! said...

awww thanks for the lovin'. me gusta sistahly love!!!

yes!!! you win the prize! they is stretchy gaucho pants!

Alli Fantastico said...

I'm the champion!

Ash-ah-leee! said...

You are the champion of the velt!!! yes people...the WHOLE VIDE VELT!!!

too bad for y'all. sorry!

Alli Fantastico said...

have you seen Nacho Libre yet lady?!??!

Ash-ah-leee! said...

No!!! I should have told dad to bring it up!!! oh well! I'm crazy cuz i just saw School of Rock............ loved it a lot!

-KJ said...

It's a long road to the top if you wanna rock and ro-ooool!

Ryan Nelson said...

I want a slurpee so i think i'm comin to pick your trashbugash up. I'll call ya first. And I think I might buy some pizza too. I'm starving. And yes, I totally miss the smell of Disneyland but I smelled a smell just like it at the sinclair station on 9th! It was such a great smell I had to go back just to smell it again.

Ryan Nelson said...

I fell asleep and then my dad wanted me to go to Wingers. So tomorrow. Fo sho

-KJ said...

Way to lift her spirits and then dash them to pieces. Don't you know that she has a SPAC reunion tonight? Maybe next weekend Ash ;)!

Ash-ah-leee! said...

Yep!!! dream crusher!!! jk

yes I have a SPAC reunion. It's nice to know that people care!!! hahaha next week sounds great! you best be callin'!

Eliza said...

Also Ash..if you want to succeed in life you need to hang out with positive uplifting people...LIKE ME!!! (and also you need to eat lots of hershey's eggs with the foil on them- they are the best, better than kisses cause they fit in your mouth better and you can suck them til they are all dissolved- and have a slurpee)

Lyd said...

But they have to be dark chocolate eggs. That would just make them that much better! And yes, next weekend because I will be there!

Eliza said...

ps...don't eat the foil

-KJ said...

Puke dark chocolate.

Eliza said...

Dark chocolate is good as a Junior Mint or as a Riesen

Ash-ah-leee! said...

and as cadbury eggs...K i was hoping without the foil! Totally noticed that!!! Let's partee!

Is it just me or does KJ puke a lot on blogger?

-KJ said...

Yea, I must be a bulemic blogger. If it sounds sick i cyber vomit. Blaah! Only dark choco like Liza said. Not in the cadubury eggs. Only milk choco!

Eliza said...

Yes she does but this time it wasn't in her mouth. Blogging/ puking...It is called Pluking or Bluking or Plaking or blokking or...psshhht Bo-kay!

-KJ said...

Last time I puked for real it was because I had so much drainage from my allergies. Did you want to know that?

Mandy said...

i hate dark chocolate! sorry. but i do love those foiled eggs and suck on them until the dissolve! oh and reisens too...no juinor mints please or cadbury eggs...i think i havent had one in awhile! i love the reeses eggs! i eat all the chocolate off first and then the peanut butter, taylor thinks im weird. there are alot of things where i eat the outside first and then the inside...is that weird?

-KJ said...

No, unless it is an orange or something canned.

Eliza said...

That is how I eat the 3 muskateers. The mini cadbury eggs are good...the ones with the candy shell. NOT the cream filled ones...puke THAT!

Ryan Nelson said...

Dark chocolate can kiss my white A. Sick. That and democrats. And Duke.

-KJ said...

Yes! Only the cadbury with a shell. Never, ever eat anything that resembles eating a raw egg. Even if it is straight sugar! Blaah!

Ash-ah-leee! said...

I was meaning the mini cadbury eggs...Hey now!!! I have converted MANY-o-people to dark chocolate. You people must have eaten generic nasty dark choco!!! you must have the good stuff like ghiradelli or sumpin!!!

anyway, "cadbury" cadbury eggs are of the nea-sty!!! (as Raven would say to Stanley)

Bo-kay!!! You sick! Liza, what are you? A 1997 cheerleader?!!! :)

Alli Fantastico said...

OOooowee TeeSHANE! Bo-kay?!?

Eliza said...

Thank you Alli...come on Ash..get with the program..shogrm..shocugrn....placrum.

Eliza said...

yes ash...I knew you were referring to Cold Case!

Ash-ah-leee! said...

get with the program...get with oprah!!! remember those days!?

Eliza said...

k ash...if you can comment you can post!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I need a breath.

Ash-ah-leee! said...

I have nussing to post about!

Eliza said...

sure you do....come on!

Alli Fantastico said...

ASHLEYYYYYYYYYYY POST SOMETHING NOWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW!!! BO-KAYEEEE???!??!??!?!?!!? Dayum, girr!